NOVEL (Title TBA) // Prologue ㅣ Coffee?

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It was 9 in the morning. Jamie was sitting on her bed after washing up and making sure all her things were all packed-up. It was her last day in the city and she was feeling down about leaving. Her flight wouldn’t be until around 9pm but she had to check-out before 12 noon.

Her phone buzzed. Someone sent her a message.

It was Casey.

She felt her heart beat a little faster.

Coffee?” he asked.

A little confused, she typed ‘Yes’ but hesitated to send it. Eventually, she deleted it.

‘Are you asking me if I like coffee or just teasing me?’ she muttered to herself frustratingly. She really likes this guy but she couldn’t tell him and she was exerting all her effort to act normal around him.

She was thinking of anything brilliant she could say to make their exchange of messages longer. She couldn’t think of anything.

She settled to, “Yes. Good morning :)”

She sent the message with a smile on her face as if Casey could see her. But she was freaking worried each second without a reply from him.

Two minutes had passed by when she received messages from Casey.

 “Good morning :)”

“I’m here at a cafe across your hotel. I’ll wait for you.”

She didn’t know what to do. Excitement and nervousness swept over her.

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Adrift.

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A little confused, a little lost.

Should I stay or should I move?

I said, “Just one more time.”

‘Cos I thought everything’s gonna be sublime. 

How many times did I convince myself of this and that?

I can’t remember, I’ve lost count.

The days passed by quickly,

Life is fleeting in front of me.

Weighing the things that really matter,

I need the courage to jump into the water.

I whispered, “Just go. Dream bigger.”

But I hesitated ‘cos I don’t even know what to do, for starters.

My messed up mind is becoming tired.

Passion is losing in my beating heart.

A friend said, “We walk on this earth only once.”

It made me wonder, “Can I just go to Neverland?”

TUESDAY TATTLES ㅣ09.01.16

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09.01.16 ㅣ Saturday

I just got back from my one-month annual vacation. I didn’t get as sad as I used to feel whenever I come back here. Maybe because I was too tired. (My flight was delayed for 3 hours by the way). I arrived at 2:15 am in Doha airport, waited for my luggage for 15 minutes, panicked when one of my checked-in luggages didn’t come out in the assigned baggage belt (Belt number 5) for our flight. I had to go to Baggage Services department to inform them and they advised me that there were a few bags transferred to Belt Number 1. Luckily, I found my bag after waiting for 10 minutes. I was able to leave the airport at past 3:00 am.

I was too tired, stressed, and sleepy to get emotional. I reached home at 3:20 am. I unpacked my bags, fixed my things, put on new bed sheets and pillow cases, washed up, and was good to sleep at 4:30 am. My alarm went off before I even get in a deep sleep and dreamland.

It was 6:30 am. I had to get ready for my 7:30 am work.

Reality kicked in. 11 months of routinary life to me.

Can’t wait for my next vacation…

TUESDAY TATTLESㅣGo Away. Give Me A Chance To Miss You… (But I won’t. Just go.)

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Fickle-minded. Almost always confused. Yes, I am. *Me: timidly standing in one corner, shyly looking down while slowly raising my right hand.* 

I keep changing my mind and feelings frequently. It’s too frequent that if the biochemical reactions to my mental and my emotional stimuli could roll their eyes or could just simply hand over to me their responsibilities and leave, they would.

I guess my hormones are in constant rotating shift schedule. Or maybe they are too happy to be part of me because I usually don’t mind anything. (I imagine my  hormones dozing off while some are happily sliding and skinny dipping in my bloodstream!)

It’s not because I don’t care or I’m too cool. It’s mainly because I’m just lazy for arguments. “Do whatever,” I’d always say.

If I like you it means I really do. No reservations, no vagueness, and no pretensions. But it doesn’t mean I’d be forever amused with you or I’d always want your company or see your face or hear your voice. No!

I get sick and tired easily and quietly (both literal and figurative). I can’t hang out with the same people everyday or every week or any set schedule. I can’t even talk to the same person for long. That’s why I’m only friends with people I really like, not to those I just ‘kinda’ like.

I always crave for distance. I need my own cave. Sometimes I think I am a man trapped in a woman’s body. You know how men are, right? Most of them, if not all, need their distance without a single thing in their mind.. Blank. Nada. I’m like that.

If I’m being pushed to my limit, I tend to cut connections, again literally and figuratively. I fade out. I can easily drop clingy and toxic pals. Bye, Felicia!

(After reading some articles, I think maybe I’m an introvert. Shoutout to Huffpost! http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/8576530)

 

 

MONDAY MOVESㅣ Breaking Up With Mondaze

It’s Monday.. Yeah, I know Monday is ‘THE DREADED DAY’ to most of you. I used to hate Mondays too! Thankfully (Thankful?! Oh really now? *crickets sound*), my schedule now is different. I rekindled my relationship with Monday long time ago.

I go to work 6 days a week. Friday is the new weekend to me. Yup, only one day. So people, please be grateful if you have two days off and amazing long weekends every freakin* month! I don’t have those.

How to move on from Monday? Motivate yourself! Think about your plans. Isn’t it exciting that when Monday comes, it means one day less until your most awaited date? It could be a weekend getaway, a dream trip you’ve been planning for months or years, or a special occasion that makes your heart flutter.

When I feel the Monday blues, I list down all the things I want to do in a month or two. And never accomplish most of them.. How inspiring, right? But it’s not the point. Realizing what you want to do makes you excited everyday.

Here are some of the things I’m most elated about:

  • Going home to my family and friends! Yey!!! Seeing them is the one I’m most ecstatic, elated, euphoric about that I can’t stop counting down the days.
  • Trip to one of my favorite cities! ❤ *fingers crossed* ♫So love me like you do, love me like you do. Love me like you do, love me like you do♪ (My friend said she will play “Love Me Like You Do” in the background when I meet someone special during this trip. *giggles* *blushes*. So if you are reading this and you hear that song when we meet, it means you’re that someone special.. Haha!)
  • Christmas and New Year! There’s nothing like being at home for Christmas Holidays. *Cue: ♫Cause this year (this year). I’ll be home for Christmas♪*   
  • Other plans: brush up my driving skills, refresh my talent in playing the keys (I had piano lessons when I was a kid and the only song I can remember now is “Tug of War”), and take seriously my urge to become fluent in at least one of the three foreign languages I’ve been meaning to learn since the stone age.

If I’d be honest with myself, I don’t think my “other plans” will come to fruition. I know I will just laze around during my whole vacation; watch movies & tv series, go here and there, food trip, and enjoy home sweet home.

Basically, these are the few things that make me look forward to each and every coming day.

Hi there, Monday!

But first, coffee.

 

Hello! (again)

Time check: 02:30am

I’m so unpredictable that even I couldn’t predict myself. Why am I writing (after watching my go-to feel good movie, Chalet Girl, for the nth time!) during witching hour when I have to go to work at 07:30am? I’m pretty sure I’ll be late tomorrow.

Anyway, I have a lot of things in my mind lately; mostly about the good times in the past and future plans. I have so many plans that I don’t even know which one to start. I don’t want any of them to get jealous and say that I prioritize one thing over the others. That’s why they are still plans. Yeah, I am an adult. *sigh*

The other day, I decided to reread my entries here. It surprised me that the last time I wrote was 7 months ago. I’ve been a delinquent blogger. When I like to do something, I get so fired up at the start but the fire is out as soon as the sun goes down. Literally. That’s not a metaphor or something.

But I have a good news for you my dear writer/blogger/reader/lurker friends! I realized something while I was rereading eveything I wrote here in my blog. There are some things I said jokingly that came true; setting foot in Europe, dining in al fresco, and meeting some strangers (who became my good friends now). Yup, they came true.. Twice! In less than a year at that *Winning at life. Yey!*😀 And there are some that are about to happen. Well, let’s see… *Giggles. Fingers crossed.*

I couldn’t help myself but to smile (while having goose bumps) and to feel really grateful and blessed. Words really are powerful. We should only talk and write about the positive ones. You guys can try it!

Talk to you again soon!

To God be the glory. 🙂

Be Awesome for DUMMIES.

How to be somebody? Somebody that is AWESOME. This is exactly my thought.

I don’t let my mind linger on it to avoid blow to my self-esteem. But I can’t help myself.

In the middle of nowhere, I always catch myself gazing at something without really seeing it.

Sometimes, I can’t even tell apart my goals from my daydreams.

I always wonder, in plain curiosity, how other human beings can be great while others passed by in this world without leaving a mark or without having a chance to do what they want most in their lifetime.

What is the criteria of life in giving us different circumstances that seem not fair at all?

How does world really work?

Be Awesome for DUMMIES. Is there such a thing?