TUESDAY TATTLESㅣGo Away. Give Me A Chance To Miss You… (But I won’t. Just go.)

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Fickle-minded. Almost always confused. Yes, I am. *Me: timidly standing in one corner, shyly looking down while slowly raising my right hand.* 

I keep changing my mind and feelings frequently. It’s too frequent that if the biochemical reactions to my mental and my emotional stimuli could roll their eyes or could just simply hand over to me their responsibilities and leave, they would.

I guess my hormones are in constant rotating shift schedule. Or maybe they are too happy to be part of me because I usually don’t mind anything. (I imagine my  hormones dozing off while some are happily sliding and skinny dipping in my bloodstream!)

It’s not because I don’t care or I’m too cool. It’s mainly because I’m just lazy for arguments. “Do whatever,” I’d always say.

If I like you it means I really do. No reservations, no vagueness, and no pretensions. But it doesn’t mean I’d be forever amused with you or I’d always want your company or see your face or hear your voice. No!

I get sick and tired easily and quietly (both literal and figurative). I can’t hang out with the same people everyday or every week or any set schedule. I can’t even talk to the same person for long. That’s why I’m only friends with people I really like, not to those I just ‘kinda’ like.

I always crave for distance. I need my own cave. Sometimes I think I am a man trapped in a woman’s body. You know how men are, right? Most of them, if not all, need their distance without a single thing in their mind.. Blank. Nada. I’m like that.

If I’m being pushed to my limit, I tend to cut connections, again literally and figuratively. I fade out. I can easily drop clingy and toxic pals. Bye, Felicia!

(After reading some articles, I think maybe I’m an introvert. Shoutout to Huffpost! http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/8576530)

 

 

THURSDAY TRAVELSㅣ Weekend Vibe.

Cheers to the freakin’ Thursday!!! It’s the weekend here! Yay!

Cue: Sound in the background: *party poppers* *whistles* *clinking glasses*

Who am I fooling? I’m still at work in the office. Again, who am I fooling? I’m not working at this time. I ran out of energy to even talk to anyone. I’m just waiting for the time until I’m off to home. Haha. Lastly, who am I fooling? There’s not even a single party happening this weekend.

So why do I feel giddy? Just the thought of staying up late and laying on my bed without the need to get up early tomorrow make me happy like a child that if my bed had springs, I would jump up and down on it.

Now it’s the weekend; two weeks later, it’s home sweet home; and three weeks later, it’s a holiday trip to one of my favorite cities! *crossed fingers* Thinking of these makes me giggle and hyperventilate a little.

‘Too many things to do, too little time,’ has always been my silent complain each time I’m going on vacation. Why silent? ‘Cos I know very well that it’s my fault. I’m a big fan of “Just do it..later√.” Yes, with a check like Nike’s… for added confidence and because I’m cool, ya know.   

Weekends and travels, two of the very few things that can shake me out of my lethargy.

“Staying in one place is lethal, I could die.” These are the exact words I uttered to myself last night.

To avoid emotional and psychological death, I try to live by either reminiscing or counting down the days. Memories and excitement help me get through each day. Quite sad, right?

Alone and lonely, I often catch myself staring blankly ahead, just making my way, making my way, through the crowd.

And I need you, and I miss you.. And now I wonder

♫If I could fall into the sky. Do you think time would pass me by? ‘Cause you know I’d walk a thousand miles if I could see you… tonight♪

Kidding and singing aside, time’s up! It’s officially my weekend! Bye!!!

TUESDAY TATTLES ㅣDown In The Dumps.. 8 years ago.

I went through my old e-mails and found some interesting articles I wrote way back. I wonder what was I thinking and feeling while I was writing this. Did I take a bitter pill? Or was it one of those days I was too bored but the words kept popping in my head so I had to type them away? One thing is for sure, I wasn’t feeling a bit of heartbreak then. Strange…

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16 February 2007

There are things that are meant to happen.. So don’t blame anyone for the things you had and might regret, even yourself. Yes, even yourself.

When you were much younger, you thought that the world is filled with roses and fantasies. You started to dream.. Each day, your dreams became bigger and bigger. You carefully put them on hold with a plan to realize them when you are ready and capable to accomplish such mature dreams.

You thought that you were invincible, nothing and no one can hurt you, because you were innocent and young. As you grew a little older, you realized that no one has the ability to shield oneself from hurt and pain.

You learned that despite of not doing anything bad or unjust to anyone, there will always be some people who would love to see you down and miserable.

At first you would be surprised that some could promise you their love and treat you like you are their everything; you are their world, you are their life. But after a while, soon before you realize that the world can make you cry and long before you know that someone who had made you believe in dreams and fantasies was just lying, you’d discover that anyone could simply walk out of your life leaving no trace of the promises they made.

You’d suffer yourself from all the heartaches and heartbreaks. The pain would be too much to bear that you could swear you would never ever fall for someone again…

MONDAY MOVESㅣ Breaking Up With Mondaze

It’s Monday.. Yeah, I know Monday is ‘THE DREADED DAY’ to most of you. I used to hate Mondays too! Thankfully (Thankful?! Oh really now? *crickets sound*), my schedule now is different. I rekindled my relationship with Monday long time ago.

I go to work 6 days a week. Friday is the new weekend to me. Yup, only one day. So people, please be grateful if you have two days off and amazing long weekends every freakin* month! I don’t have those.

How to move on from Monday? Motivate yourself! Think about your plans. Isn’t it exciting that when Monday comes, it means one day less until your most awaited date? It could be a weekend getaway, a dream trip you’ve been planning for months or years, or a special occasion that makes your heart flutter.

When I feel the Monday blues, I list down all the things I want to do in a month or two. And never accomplish most of them.. How inspiring, right? But it’s not the point. Realizing what you want to do makes you excited everyday.

Here are some of the things I’m most elated about:

  • Going home to my family and friends! Yey!!! Seeing them is the one I’m most ecstatic, elated, euphoric about that I can’t stop counting down the days.
  • Trip to one of my favorite cities! ❤ *fingers crossed* ♫So love me like you do, love me like you do. Love me like you do, love me like you do♪ (My friend said she will play “Love Me Like You Do” in the background when I meet someone special during this trip. *giggles* *blushes*. So if you are reading this and you hear that song when we meet, it means you’re that someone special.. Haha!)
  • Christmas and New Year! There’s nothing like being at home for Christmas Holidays. *Cue: ♫Cause this year (this year). I’ll be home for Christmas♪*   
  • Other plans: brush up my driving skills, refresh my talent in playing the keys (I had piano lessons when I was a kid and the only song I can remember now is “Tug of War”), and take seriously my urge to become fluent in at least one of the three foreign languages I’ve been meaning to learn since the stone age.

If I’d be honest with myself, I don’t think my “other plans” will come to fruition. I know I will just laze around during my whole vacation; watch movies & tv series, go here and there, food trip, and enjoy home sweet home.

Basically, these are the few things that make me look forward to each and every coming day.

Hi there, Monday!

But first, coffee.

 

SATURDAY VIBE ㅣ Travel Playlist

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“This heart of mine was made to travel the world. Oh, and maybe to fall in love.”

 

Going to different places teach me different things about life. The more I see the world, the better understanding of life I get. It helps me realize that life is beautiful and the world is wonderful.

During my travels, I try my best to savor each moment. I always catch myself in awe, admiring the places or landmarks I used to see in movies or read about in books. Yes, I take some photos so I will still vividly remember the places and things in the future and to share them with my family. But the more important thing I do, I believe, is imprinting my journeys in my mind so they may last in my memory.

Beautiful experiences and memories help me get by when struggles and lonely moments try to knock me down. I may not recall all the details, but the feelings they bring surely hit the spot.

And what’s the best way to re-live those moments? I accompany my travels with good songs that make me excited and over the moon before I even embark on my journey.

Here’s the list of my favorite travel songs:

Note: I have this habit of playing Justin Timberlake’s Not A Bad Thing and Mirrors while I’m in the plane wherever I go, hence their inclusion in my travel playlist.   

  1. GOOD LIFE – One Republic 
  2. BEST DAY OF MY LIFE – American Authors
  3. GO – Livingston
  4. SHIP AND THE GLOBE – Kae Sun
  5. SUNBOAT – Little Suns
  6. CROSS MY MIND – Twin Forks
  7. NOT A BAD THING – Justin Timberlake
  8. MIRRORS – Justin Timberlake

‘Til next travel and playlist. Ciao! :*

Hello! (again)

Time check: 02:30am

I’m so unpredictable that even I couldn’t predict myself. Why am I writing (after watching my go-to feel good movie, Chalet Girl, for the nth time!) during witching hour when I have to go to work at 07:30am? I’m pretty sure I’ll be late again tomorrow..

Anyway, I have a lot of things in my mind lately; mostly about the good times in the past and future plans. I have so many plans that I don’t even know which one to start. I don’t want any of them to get jealous and say that I prioritize one thing over the others. That’s why they are still plans. Yeah, I am an adult. *sigh*

The other day, I decided to reread my entries here. It surprised me that the last time I wrote was 7 months ago. I’ve been a delinquent blogger. When I like to do something, I get so fired up at the start but the fire is out as soon as the sun goes down. Literally. That’s not a metaphor or something.

But I have a good news for you my dear writer/blogger/reader/lurker friends! I realized something while I was rereading eveything I wrote here in my blog. There are some things I said jokingly that came true; setting foot in Europe, dining in al fresco, and meeting some strangers (who became my good friends now). Yup, they came true.. Twice! In less than a year at that *Winning at life. Yey!*😀 And there are some that are about to happen. Well, let’s see… *Giggles. Fingers crossed.*

I couldn’t help myself but to smile (while having goose bumps) and to feel really grateful and blessed. Words really are powerful. We should only talk and write about the positive ones. You guys can try it!

Talk to you again soon!With extra special “rewards.”

To God be the glory. 🙂

Be Awesome for DUMMIES.

How to be somebody? Somebody that is AWESOME. This is exactly my thought.

I don’t let my mind linger on it to avoid blow to my self-esteem. But I can’t help myself.

In the middle of nowhere, I always catch myself gazing at something without really seeing it.

Sometimes, I can’t even tell apart my goals from my daydreams.

I always wonder, in plain curiosity, how other human beings can be great while others passed by in this world without leaving a mark or without having a chance to do what they want most in their lifetime.

What is the criteria of life in giving us different circumstances that seem not fair at all?

How does world really work?

Be Awesome for DUMMIES. Is there such a thing?